When it comes to trying something new I often risk failure because I am immediately drawn to the most complicated projects.  For some reason it is so hard to convince my own brain that it cannot just skip the basics and go right to the advanced techniques.  This often leads to frustration and projects never really making it off the ground.  Today I dealt with one of those instances.  When I was in high school I was very into making things with seed beads.  I could use a bead loom just fine, but what I really wanted to do was bead weaving by hand.  I got one of those ‘Darice’ booklets (if you were a crafter in the 90s you know what I am talking about) on bead weaving and dove right in.  I became so frustrated with the whole thing that I gave up and never tried bead weaving again.  So when I decided to try again to learn a simple brick stitch, I actually got anxious because I have convinced myself that I am just completely incapable of this technique. 

This time, instead of going for the smallest seed beads I could find and trying to weave in multiple beads in some extreme design, I found in my stash these crappy size 6 seed beads and while following a tutorial on YouTube I made a wonky diamond shape (its wonky because cheap seed beads tend to be non-uniform).  It’s not outstanding or particularly interesting, but for me its kind of huge because I conquered something that I just assumed I was incapable of doing.

I am going to keep my wonky little beaded diamond as a reminder that I need to allow myself to crawl before I can walk (much less fly).  I guess this means I have to give knitting another chance to.