There are a several things I could do to make my life easier.  Things I could organize or keep clean or use regularly that would probably noticeably improve my productivity.  That’s not even to mention the myriad of tasks that I have been putting off doing that are only getting larger and more unmanageable the longer I put them off. 

The question I ask myself is, ‘why?’

Why, if I can see what needs to be done, do I let things get so out of control?  It is almost comical, or it would be if it was happening to someone else, someone I don’t like very much, perhaps.  Instead, I go to sleep every night thinking ‘I will take care of these things tomorrow’.  I will fill in the planner, and I will clean the room.  I will make sure a space is dedicated solely to writing and I won’t fill it up with craft projects or overflowing papers.  I will go online and pay those medical bills, even though I think it is ridiculous that they can’t figure out a way to let me know how much I owe when I am standing there in the doctor’s office (but this is not the time for me to rant about the health/insurance systems in this country).  I tell myself that tomorrow I will focus and get these things done and life will be better for it.  But the next day passes and somehow I don’t even come close to dealing with the ever growing pile of stuff I have to deal with. 

I know I am not alone in this experience, right? 

Again though, what I wonder is why?  Or more specifically, what is it about humans that make some of us so distractable?  What primal drive does this issue stem from?  Does my disorganization come from something that could have helped my ancestors survive against saber-tooth tigers, or is this a later anomaly that I only survived because of modern invention? Or is it a product of modernity, and if I was put in a situation where survival was a real issue would I become more focused and driven?  Maybe the space cadet in me is meant to solve problems in high intensity situations, but since I don’t really live in a society where those things come up very often, I just end up wasting my time until I have short bursts of focus.  The rest of the time its just procrastination nation.